8th place Olympic final 2008
Dropped the stick in the 4x100m Olympic games 2008
8th place 100m World Champs 2009
DQ’d 4x100m World Champs 2009
but…5th place in a semifinal at World Champs?
This is the first time that I have ever not made a final. And as an American sprinter, I feel like making the final is something that I am supposed to do. I expect people to have that expectation, and I expect for me to execute on that expectation. I always have and always will. So for me to fall short is an insult to the people who watch and listen and cheer for the USA, and it is a disappointment to the sprinters who have come before me. When was the last time you saw only one American in a sprints final at a major international meet? That’s my point. You probably can’t remember because it probably has not happened.
So where do I go from here? I’ve had a couple of thoughts. I’ve asked myself why I’m still here doing this track and field thing. Maybe I should just stop. Why even bother continuing to open myself up to the potential of failure? Why drag the people who love and support me through that kind of rollercoaster? Why put myself through that kind of rollercoaster?
And then I got a ping on my blackberry messenger:
“Colossians 1:17 – In Him all things hold together. ‘Jesus, I believe that you are above all things. Fill me with faith so that even if everything around me is shaking, you hold me secure’.”
My circumstances do not and will not define me. What makes good athletes great is how they bounce back. Their greatness is a measure of their resiliency. Their greatness is in their determination and commitment to never giving up. I’m committed to greatness. This isn’t my legacy, and it isn’t all she wrote for me. Disappointing, yes. The end. Absolutely not. Will folks doubt me? Some already do. Do I care? Not really. Am I committed? You can bet on it.